Motion.

I cannot write lists they make me anxious I am so buzzing at this moment that I believe punctuation will be neglected for the entirety of this post I want to want and I want everything I see myself distinctly in one place then another and still even yet everywhere I catch glimpse of a fastforward five year I have continued trying my hand as an artist and have been holding the bow of my archer's arm increasingly steady I still move with the same momentum as before the same velocity and I have been to two more continents and several more countries seeing and remembering everything unfolding before me Germany Italy Iceland I have been accepted into a couple medical schools and stand before a great decision here or there I have been more on my own and less in a permanent home I have given much of my time to sleeplessness and the realities of the world serving people and meeting needs with all the humanity I can give I have gathered infinite memories of the things and people and places I have seen in my travels and they are scattered and pinned in a space that can only be mine I have never stopped moving and have completely the less staggering of my desires I have read more and spent less of my time and eyes gazing upon computers and ten years still ahead I am breathing more fully and fighting to seize that which I have dreamt medical school consumes hours days months and I still manage to find time for my art myself and the world

Suffice it to say, I want the world

For sake of the practice of this assignment, I will place my answers in organized structures as well:

Five years from now

• embarking on the journey and struggle that is medical school
• living on my own
• have greater knowledge of African history and culture
• traveling, seeing, giving, and remembering it all in film and memories
• expanded body of work
• overseas missionary work

Ten years

• tackling the necessities of medical school
• beginning practice
• extended missions work
• vast library of books and knowledge

This is how I see myself. I cannot say I am practical, only real and not wholly realistic. To see the things I want broken down is almost too much and never quite enough.

Soon:

• taking additional art classes to branch out more artistically
• learning the entirety of the human body, in a scientist's as well as artist's eyes
• resuming swimming on a regular basis
• finding a psychiatric hospital to volunteer at
• experimenting on my own with different media and new techniques, etc.
• attaining a healthy routine that is not entirely predictable
• learning more African history
• learning a new language (to read, preferably German)
• applying for more scholarships to study abroad and save up for medical school
• writing more, reading more
• more piano

Later:

• spending several weeks serving in another country
• learning a new language (to speak)
• applying for medical school
• leaving Florida
• finding the means to travel more
• creating a space to call my own
• adopting a child from overseas